Spring

April 27th, 2025

Currently Reading: All Art Is Propaganda: Critical Essays by George Orwell

Currently Watching: The Last of Us

Currently Listening: The sirens up and down Military

The world is changing, at least my world is. I have a new job, a new home, a new fear that everything I know and love is slipping through my fingers and the country I know and love will be a foreign land to my children. So, basically, spring has sprung.

I've been avoiding the news, but as I am addicted to media, I can't escape it. What's worse is the community facebook page. Citizens reveling in the fact that my rights are being taken away, not realizing that theirs are as well. I want to shout in their face. I want to shake them and scream that I'm not your enemy. I'm no threat to you.

But I can't. I can't seem to do anything. I'm so tired.

Unfortunately, my mind has been spinning with ideas for protest, for art, for literature, for decor, for a future that may or may not exist and as my mind races and races I stay perfectly still in rot. I just want to escape into the small world of Avonlea. Typical American. Wanting to run away to an idealized form of Canada.

When my grandparents took their children in their arms away from everything they knew, they had a promise of a better life. Did the United States deliver? It was better than Cuba. For a time. But look at my family now: dying from preventable disease, left to die with a fixed income depleating. Birth certificates that are disolving from years of moves and water damage. Birth certificates that can't be replaced without returning to Cuba. I can hoard bottles of water, canned food, hunting knives, guns, hand sanitizer and toilet paper, but I can't hoard my family. Should their citizenship be questioned, there would be only their passports to prove their status. Who carries their passport everywhere?

And me? This is my birthright. Unless, of course, it isn't.

And where would I go? Who would take me? There are too many of us to relocate. Americans would need extrodinary goodwill from other countries and we have spent decades destroying that goodwill.

No.

There's nowhere to run.

It's freeze or fight.

--Beacon